Inner Thoughts

'I want to appreciate and treasure everything I have now'....

I have this strong feelings during and after my birthday party even until now and I believe this feeling will last for quite a long time and I really do hope this feeling will last forever.... My friend said feelings cannot be control.... Ya true, and people will never satisfied.... But really, thinking everything that my family and buddies did for my birthday really made me feel that I'm so stupid as I always feel sad and down over some little things last time as if my world will be forever grey.... I hope I can be more optimistic, at least not so pessimistic.... Really, you all not only gave me an unforgettable and wonderful birthday.... The feeling you all brings to me is definitely much much much more than that...!! I don't know why but I just felt very touched when Teh and Huan asked me not to be so pessimistic and have to be more positive towards every circumstances in life in the VCR.... They know me..!! Ya... I'm very easily feel touched over those little little things.... And same goes to I always laughed at those little little things then Geng and Wei will pei si me for that.... haha~

Chat with a friend of mine yesterday... He said I should look for guys who had already settle down everything, meaning financially/mentally/watever-ly stable.... Maybe.... Perhaps.... I don't know.... I don't really agree but I've to admit that it is true someway, somehow.... Lazy to talk about it cos I got lots to talk about if I really wanted to.... But I lazy.... I'm having problem in organising my thoughts and put it into a proper/clear sentence lately... People change, things change, everything/everyone has the possibility to change.... He is good now but is that mean he will be good in the future?? No one knows. That's why people said love is just like gambling.... There're always the chance as well as the risks... In short, nobody knows what will happened in the future and so, I've learnt not to think so much about it.... It will comes when it has to come, right?? Fate is always the MAGIC word...

And... I don't understand when ppl have all kind of reason when they want to break up with their bf/gf... You love him/her but you HAVE to leave him/her??? What is it that made you HAVE to leave him/her?? It is acceptable la if you have some reasonable reason says the person already have a family or like some unacceptable (I mean really unacceptable!!) attitude/behaviour of that person.... Other than that, you just don't love him/her anymore..... Stop bad-mouthing/back-stabbing about him/her just to prove to yourself/your friends that you're so innocent or so unwillingly but you HAVE to leave him/her.... They're already very pity so STOP 'pouring salt on their wound'....