I need some advice

Had a relaxing holiday for the past 3 days.. Spent my holiday at PD with my family and relatives... Basically, we just EAT and SLEEP and CHAT... That's the main 3 things that we all did at PD... Haha... Relaxing.. Really Relaxing... Enjoying the feeling there tho sometimes there might be something distracting me, that's when I 'suddenly' think of my working problem and also the AR i need to follow up AND ALSO some of the calls... Argh!! I'm not that workholic but then, it will just suddenly jump into your mind and your mood will definitely, affected...

It's not that there are too many works for me to do that made me feel so FRUSTRATED, this might be one of the point, but definitely not the MAIN CAUSE... I love to learn, I'm willing to learn as well, I always love to contribute, I like to have lots of work to do tho I always complaining, honestly, will you be happy if you have nothing to do in your company? NO! Definitely NOT...

BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!! NOT OVERLOAD!! I REALLY HATE IT WHEN EVERYONE COME TO ME AND TELL ME THIS URGENT THAT URGENT!!! OK NOW, TELL ME WHICH ONE I SHOULD DO FIRST??? WHICH ONE??? AND I REALLY HATE IT WHEN I COULDN'T DO THE BEST IN EACH OF THE TASK, I REALLY HATE IT WHEN I CANNOT PERFORM WELL... THAT WILL MADE ME FEEL THAT I'M NOT CAPABLE AND EFFICIENT AND ARGH!!!!! But, is that really my fault?? I really hate this kind of feelings...

Nowadays, especially in this 2 weeks, there're always some negative feelings disturbing me, I can't really explain the negative feeling but, the feeling is getting stronger and stronger... Can 'I don't like the management style' be the reason?? I don't know... Sometimes I do not know the problem is with me or with 'somebody' else... Imagine you not happy with the one you working with, can you improve yourselves in your performance? Can you be happy with what you doing now?? Can you excel in this company??

Then I will think... what if this problem will exist wherever I go?? Or might be worst in another company.. Then why leave?? Is it because I couldn't cope with all those obstacles that made me want to run away?? I don't want to leave to run away... I will look down at myself... Is it because I couldn't stand with certain people's attitude that made me want to run away?? Then why don't I think a way to solve this problem rather than leave??

When you really super duper hyper cannot stand with certain people's attitude, is the problem with you or with that person? Can that be a reason to leave?

Sometimes, I will have a feeling that... I got lots of work to do but I couldn't feel my existance here... Am I asking too much? Or am I thinking too much?

Sometimes when problem occurs, I need to discuss on the solution but you know how it feels when someone show you his irritation face plus the why-so-many-problems expression.. Alright, I will solve it myself if I can solve it, And excuse me, do you know that there're also many problems that I'd solved before bring it up to you? No, you do not know, you only know and always assume that we're bringing problems to you... Really, I always hope that I can shout back to him... SHIT!

You know the feeling when someone asking you to do something, which is not an easy task, you tried your very best, you got scolded or the call being ended rudely, you still couldn't able to do it and yet you still need to get the why-you-can't-make-it look from him... But you know what, I feel better when my colleague says: ASK HIM TO DO HIMSELF LA, SINCE HE THINK THIS IS SUCH AN EASY TASK!! Wow! At least someone knows how I feel and I feel supported... Haha...

If I were to leave, for sure I will feel sad to leave my colleagues.. They are so lovely, funny, helpful and understanding...

I need some advice...

You know what, one of my colleagues asking us where to get the sample of resignation letter.. GOSH! Now you know what kind of atmosphere we were working in?? *Double GOSH!*