What will I be?

I'm lazy. I got lots of works to do, but I don't know where to start. I'm too lazy to think about it. It's month end, super busy period for every month. My mindset tends to run away from it. Keep on friendstering and reading people's blog. I'm lazy. Yea, I'm lazy.

Talked with one of my colleague yesterday. He is just 3 years elder than me but he has a very mature thinking. He plans for his future. He analyse everything to me. I really need to plan for my future. I'm still young, it's the time for me to explore, to learn, to experience. I'm ok with my job now especially after the appraisal with my manager. Did I talk about it before in my blog? Anyway, we talked about my past 1 year performance. He is satisfied with my performance. He rated me much higher than what I rated myself, higher than what I expected he will be rating me. I'm happy with that as I know, my effort is worth it after all. He is going to assign a new task for me. I'm kinda interested in it and he asked me to do a proposal for him on how to implement it and all. I'm kinda excited with it, it is a good try and a good chance isn't it? But then, after talked with my colleague yesterday, my mindset tends to change again. Argh! I think I really need to seriously think about it. I'm still unclear with my direction. I'd been think a lot after the appraisal, I think I should give myself a last chance in this company and see how things go. Told this to my friend, and he is very supportive as well tho he don't like this kind of office hour life. I thought I'm able to convince myself as well as others. And now I can't agree more with what my colleague said but I also feel that I shouldn't jump too far. Now is not the right time I suppose.

Hu~ Gonna back to my work le..