My lovely and happening weekend

Let's see...

My last weekend was.. extremely... HAPPIE!!!!! Hahahahahaha... Yippie!!! What a lovely weekend I had...

Fri nite:
Dinner with my gang @ Chillis... Our favourite dining place with our super loved Southwestern Lamp Chop!! Yummy!!! Not to forget the BEST Bottomless Ice Lemon Tea!! Wahahahaha... So full but feel so contented.. Kekekekeke... ^_^

Sat,where my happy weekend begins:
Woke up at 9 something in the morning, mummy was so suprised to see me wake up so early.. Hahaha.. Ata maggi mee and then lunch - Fish Head Mee... Super Yummy!! And expensive also.. Can't believe it... Basically do nothing in the afternoon, just taking my own sweet time watching TV and relaxing... Feel so good~ hehe... Colleagues asked me out in the afternoon, seems like they'd a very good and interesting plan but I didn't follow them EVEN THOUGH they purposely come to my house, parked in front of my door and waiting me to go out... At times, I'm quite stubborn also... hehehe... But really, so sweet of them... The main reason I don't want to go out with them in the afternoon is, I knew I'll be going out until late at night, in order not to make my mummy lia gong, I better stay at home in the afternoon... good gal rite.. keke *wink*

At night, dinner with colleagues at Kaki Corner... Had a GREAT Time chatting, laughing and eating... Then secound round we heading to Mont Kiara - SODA... My first time went there and it was FUN!!!!!! The music, the atmosphere, and MOST IMPORTANTLY the people I went with, I love it all..!!!!! My first time clubbing until I'm not willing to go back... Hahahaha... FUN!!!!!!!! Wow, Just Wow!!! After that went to mamak nearby, drank Milo Kosong Panas.. Happily chatting, laughing and teasing again!!! FUN!! FUN!! FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!! Happie~

Oh ya, Whisky + Coke is NICE!!!!!

Sun, another highlight of my happening weekend:
Went out with colleague at 2 something... Before that had a long chat with my mummy... Talked a lot, about everything.. Work, colleagues and RELATIONSHIP..!!! Hahahahahaha... She is quite gan cheong also huh... Kekekekeke... Went to The Curve, watched DORM @ the new cinema... Goodie Good!! I personally love the seat a lot, comfortable!! BUT!!! It was so super cold man!!! I can see everyone was freezing cold even though they'd a jacket with them, can you imagine how cold am I without a jacket?? I thought I was in Genting... Hahaha.. Anyway, I love the storyline of DORM, another meaningful ghost story after Dark Water, not really scary but I like the way the movie goes as well as the message they're trying to bring out.. GOOD!!! A movie worth to watch!!! **Touched** and **Thumbs up**

After movie, we decided to have a hot drink, went to Kopitiam, ate Roti Bakar and half-boiled eggs and we drank hot coffee.. Not really nice but the feeling is good... ^_^

At night, dinner with family @ Restaurant 88... My little cousin brother's birthday!!! Same thing, happily chatting and laughing but I didn't eat much... My stomach can't afford it anymore after the bread and especially the eggs... After that went to my uncle's house, ate Chocolate Walnut cake.. Yummy!!! From Secret Recipe!!! Chit chatting again then went back home, chit chatting with my family again and laughed a lot too... HAHAHAHAHA... We've got so much to chat huh...

All in all, I'm super satisfied and felt super contented with my happening weekend!!! WoooooooooHoooooooooooooooooooooo~

Sometimes, it's just those little things that lighten up my day, as long as I'm with my beloved family and lovely friends!!

^_^

This and That

It'd been a while I didn't blog already.. Partly is because of busy, mainly is because of lazy.. hahahaha... Just don't have the ilham to blog...

My speaker spoilt already.. =( So sad.. No Music in the office... So boring!! As per what my colleague told me, I looked very serious these few days when I'm doing my work without music... I think maybe music will somehow distract our concentration, made us relax a bit and then lazy a bit... And now without music, consequencely we will become serious a bit and then hardworking a bit... haha... Just my 2 cents... =p

My manager was not in for the past 3 days... It was definitely a Hooray for us!! Hahahaha... Very relaxing working days... They even volume up the music as if we're in RedBox.. Ok, it was requested by me to volume up the music.. keke =p

Talked with my colleagues about a topic that we seldom talk about - Relationship... They shared their experience and what they'd seen or heard before to me... They actually gave me a different perpective about what guys think about relationship.. Funny and it is definitely a good talk... *wink*

Talked with them about working life too.. Hmm... Hmm...... About this, sometimes I think I'd been think too much, but sometimes I will feel that I don't think much enough... My decision making process is a bit slow, so please don't push me anymore... =p

Told them about my dream cafe, they're like calculating this and that to me, and as a conclusion I need about min. 12 years to have enough money for my dream comes true, 12 years!! I'm 38 already.. I was like, I don't want!!! And then they laughed.. Gosh!! Then we started to cut some of the cost and bla.. Aihz, not goin to be easy... I think I need to set a target already... Dream will not come true by itself, it needs a good and proper planning plus action.. They asked me to think about franchise, it is good and easy I know but... only if I'm a daughter of a billionaire.. haha...

Anyway, long way to go.....

Oh ya, not to forget my favourite+over frequent used phase ~ Moi Joi Gao Siu Jor...

Haha... *wink wink*

My weekend

I think I need to spend more time with my parents already.. Had been went out too often these days..

Fri nite:
Dinner @ Secret Recipe for TomYam Kung!! Yeah Yeah!! Finally... Hehehehe... Yummy!!! After that yam cha @ Star Village a.k.a Honey Star, my colleagues join us as well.. A bit awkward but, haha... Funny!!

Sat nite:
Yam cha @ Halo Cafe with my colleague and guess who I met?? Darl Ann and her bf!! Hahaha.. What a coincidence~ After that Geng and her bf came for a while also... Hahahahaha... We're just so meant to be... *wink* But who knows, maybe there's another couple hiding at a corner... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA =p Halo is really our second home...

Sun nite:
Watched VCD with my mummy.. Received some calls and sms-es that made me think a lot... Gosh!!

Yesterday is not the day

Yesterday is not the day.

My colleagues asked me to go for tea yesterday after work, I knew their main motive to ask me out, haha, I went as I want to listen to more opinions as well. They're really sweet, they shared their experience with me, and they knew what exactly happening and all the accumulated problems happened all these while that led me to this decision. I felt touched and happy as they knew, they felt my effort all these while, is just that they didn't say it out until yesterday.

And I'm surprised that they knew my fears towards the change, maybe because they had gone through the same thing before. I was actually shocked when Yap told me, never afraid of change, just go ahead, nothing can really beat you down in this world. I was like, wow, that's exactly what I'm worried about. And I was really touched when Ng sms-ed me and said they'll miss me lots if I left. As if I'll be leaving today. Haha :p

I really love to spend time with them. Just like what Ho said, they're now my another gang of friends. I feel relax and comfortable and secure whenever I'm with them. *wink*

I really appreciate and treasure them a lot. From stranger to friends and now I think they're more like my big brothers. LOVE THEM SO MANY TOO MUCH!!! Haha...

Muacks!

Moral of the Story

Saw an incident last nite which shows that there're certain people in this world can be really rude and not gentleman, no matter how educated are they...

Last night went to Citrus Park to settle my mummy's Maxis account thingy and then went to Bookstore to buy some books. When I reached the bookstore, I already noticed there's a couple, bargaining the price of the books that they want to buy if I'm not mistaken, with the auntie at the counter. The reason I notice them is because of the voice of the guy, maybe he scared we don't know he is talking. Or maybe he think if he speaks louder then people will scared of him then people will give him discount. Or mayhe he thought his-whatever-level is higher so he can speaks louder. Or whatever is it. Anyway, I continue taking my own sweet time to choose the books that I want with my mummy, and suddenly, the voice of the guy getting louder and louder, until everyone near the bookstore looked at them.

I'm not sure about the situation, guess it is something like, the auntie refused to receive the RM5 which is already koyak from the guy, there's a small part of the RM5 already missing, maybe being tore or what, so the auntie scared that she will rugi if nobody wants to receive that RM5 or something like that so she asked the guy to give him another RM5 to exchange with the one which has already koyak. Then the guy scolded her, he said the RM5 still can be used!! the number on the RM5 still there so no problem using it!! He scolded her that she cannot do business like this and said that nobody will want to buy books from her anymore if this is the way she do business. I can't really hear what the auntie replied as you know, how can you hear the voice of the rabbit when the lion is roaring?? And he somemore threatened her that she got only 2 options, one is to take the money, second is that they don't want to buy the books already. So the aunt just quietly keep the RM5 and the guy just went off with his angry face and before he left, he said something like buy few books also so mafan and made him so angry.

What I think is that if he really so confirmed that the money can be used and the auntie was so worried that the money cannot be used, then why don't he just exchange it and use it for other matters, as he is so 100% confirm that the money can be used, so just give it to people who also 100% willing to receive it. I mean, do you really need to scold people like that?? And his face, really irritating to the maximum. Hate that kind of people with that kind of attitude, who does he think he is?? No matter how nice you wear, no matter how educated you are, and no matter how many books you bought or read, your attitude and the way you talked showed everything and ruined everything as well. And the funny thing is, his gf just stand aside and smiled, I don't know she smiled is to hide her embarrassment with his bf's attitude or she smiled because she thinks her bf is very macho. Yucks!

No matter how worst is the situation, scolding is definitely not a good way to solve the problem. It will only downgraded yourself..

>.<

Talked and joked a lot with my colleagues during lunch time just now.. Argh!! I started to feel mm se tak them already... *sob* =(

I asked them whether we still can go out for dinner+clubbing+yam cha after I left, they said they need to think about it first... So bad... Haha... Then they said I'm the first one who tendered the resignation letter but I'm also the one who doing farewell with them one by one instead of them doing farewell for me... Yes, FYI, mine is 3 months notice and they're all 1 month notice only... There's a possibility that they might leave earlier than me even they tendered the letter latter than me... So 1+1=2 and 1x1=1, ok, whatever it means... =p

Really mm se tak them la, tho I know that's what everyone has to go through... People comes in and out from our life, but I'm sure, they will definitely leave a footprint in my heart...

*wink*

Decision

Fri nite:
Dinner with colleagues @ Kim Gary, 2nd round @ Q bar, 3rd round @ mamak opposite Qbar and 4th round supper @ Sungai Besi.. Hahaha... Had a great night and all of us enjoyed ourselves so very much... I really cannot drink, 2 bottles of Kampai already able to make me feel blur... Really cannot concentrate... Reached home at 4am... Hahahahahaha =p Enjoyed!!!!!!! Love my colleagues so muchie~ hehe...

Sat nite:
Dinner @ Jack's Place... Eat, talk and laughed... Haha... Then 2nd round @ Halo... Long time never been there already... Haha... Enjoyed!! Hope next time can go with Darl and Geng... *wink*

Sun nite:
Dinner with my aunt then went to visit my grandpa... As usual, everytime I see him, I will feel heartache... Health is really everything...

Special thanks to all my friends who gave me their precious advices...

Guess what my colleagues doing now... Watching Steven Chow's movie... They're KING already... Hahahahaha... If I were to leave, I'm sure I will miss each and every moments with them, they're just so sweet, really mm se tak la... *sob sob*

I don't know why I'm so terrified in making this decision.. It was like something trying to hold me back, something trying to convince me to stay... Maybe I'm so used to everything and everyone here already, I'm afraid of the change, I'm uncertain with the change, all in all, I'm pessimistic... Gosh!!

Anyway, I'd made the decision and I really hope that it is the right path to go... *pray*

I found out that when I'd bad experience in certain matter, I can really think a lot in making the decision related to that matter... I don't know whether it is a good or bad... I tend to be more careful, or I should say, OVER careful.. I wonder how things will be if I were to choose a bf... Haha... =p

Just like what my friend said, life is all about making decision... Yes, he is right... There'll be right decision among all the decisions we made throughout our life but there's no such thing as wrong decision, because, for all the decisions we made, no matter right or wrong, we'll definitely learn and gain something from it... Talked to him until 3 something midnight, sometimes, I really felt that I'm talking to an uncle whenever I talked to him, especially when he is giving advices and opinions...

Talked to my cousin last nite and got to know that she had already change to her 3rd job in less than 2 years time.. I was like, wow... I think this is normal already, no big deal for people to switch here and there.. It's just like, I'm suprise with people who can have their N-bf in such a short period of time... I think I really need to pick up with the trend already... I'm out, totally out... Haha...

Tomorrow is the day...

**Life is a series of chain reactions. Each event affects the next one in line. You may only remember the end result, but it's all those little choices that you make each day that either get you closer to your goal or further away**

**It's not where you are today, but where you going that counts**

Thank You

A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU!!!

Thanks to Ho, who keep on comforting me, offer to buy me Ice-cream to make me happy and purposely went down to get the sweets for me...

Thank to Kea Loon, who is always the first one to be there for me, acc me and chat with me, just to make me feel better...

Thanks to Ann, who called me and asked me to GO GO and GO, which made me laugh when I was crying...

Thanks to Ng, for his caring and sweet sms-es, really sweet...

Thanks to Wei, for always become the 'victim' to listen to all my dissatisfaction... pity her...

Thanks to Ann and Wei, for acc me to go for McDonald's Ice-Cream tho it ended up with Milo Ais and French Fries, but still I'm happy.. Really.. Thanks...

Thanks to Geng, I know you care... I always know...

@#$%&*#$@*&$%!

Sometimes I wonder, don't you think it is kinda sad when nobody notice it when you did something good but everyone will be pointing finger at you when you made a mistake... I'm speechless whenever these happened to me... I did fight back, of course I have to, in order to protect myself, but then, useless, nobody will understand and they will just stand firm with what they think, and continue pointing their finger to you... Ok, things happened for a reason, I will re-think what they said and absorb what is right but did they??

Don't you think it is funny when I'm just a little character in the office where everything that I did need to go through my so-called superior and when things happened, my superior told me that he fully agreed with those who attacking me that I made the mistake... He used the word FULLY AGREED man... Ok, now who is the one who check my work all these while?? who is the one who approve and sign on everything that I did all these while?? Shit!! I'm so DAMN ANGRY about it... Ok, those who know me well, you will know how angry am I when I used the word DAMN.. I'm very super extraordinary indescribable DAMN angry with it...

He did admit it is his mistake that he just signed without 'check properly' but at the next second he pushed the responsibility to me that I only let him signed when I'd arranged and done everything... Ok, my fault, so how about last month?? last last month?? and last last last last month?? I did the same thing every month and no one telling me that this is WRONG, if you also found out that this is a mistake, then you should've tell me earlier, much earlier, but not at this moment telling me I let you sign after I did everything or whatever shit you said... I'm ok if you point out my mistake at the very first time I did it, I will admit it and I will not repeat it again.. Now, months after months, when someone found out the mistake, you're telling me that you FULLY AGREE with them that my judgement is not good.. Ok, so how about yours?? I'm so damn angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Next, when I discussed with the relevant department on something that I'd doubt, this will be interpreted by them as: Cannot judge and No stand point... Ok, so when I made the decision and it is wrong, what should it be called then?? Am I wrong to discuss something that I'd doubt? I thought we should ask when we don't know.. Correct me if I'm wrong... I totally cannot tolerate with it and I keep on explaining to him about my standpoint and my reason to discuss... Again, he said they had no confident with my judgement and he said he FULLY AGREED with it... What the shit he is talking about??? I haven't even made the decision yet and I'm just discuss for god's sake... Discuss = Judgement got problem???

This case is something about the payment of rental that we paid to the owner is less than the agreed amount because of the outstation cheque from my HQ, something to do with the outstation bank commission or whatever shit, the owner requested us to pay them the full amount in future.. So I asked Finance Dept on what we should do on this, if our side cannot tolerate with it, then I need to talk to the owner about this, or maybe KL branch to issue the cheque or whatever that can be done to be more beneficial for both parties, my point is, this is really as per agreement that we have to pay that certain amount, people never expect the cheque is from outstation or what... Ok, whatever is it, I just want to discuss, am I wrong??

I didn't expect you to protect me, I knew that I shouldn't be so naive long time ago, but please, don't join the group to attack me... Can't you all just be more understanding to put yourself in my shoes?? I admit my fault, I always do... If you know me well, you'll know I'm the kind that don't like making mistake and will blame myself very much whenever I made a mistake even a small tiny one...

I felt so helpless... Told my colleagues about it also they're all speechless... They don't even know how to react and comfort me... I always tell myself that I must be careful with what I did and I want to prove to them who attack me that I'm capable for what I'm doing right now... But you know how sad it is when he told me that he fully agreed with those who're attacking me intentionly or unintentionly all these while, I mean, I always want to do the best, and what I get in the end??

What is the point to stay in this company after all?

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!

I want to cry already la!!!!!! =(

ITALY WON!! WoooooooHoooooooooo~

Supposed to wake up at 2am this morning, set my alarm, ask darl and Sim Goh Goh to wake me up as well, just in case I couldn't get up, just like what happened on Sunday morning, the match between Germany and Portugal... Germany won!! WoooooooHooooooo!!! My favourite team!!! Luckily got to watch it on yesterday night, though I already knew the result but still I want to watch it, SUPPORT GERMANY!! Yeah Yeah Yippie~ hehe... Ok, back to the topic, supposed to wake up at 2am but end up woke up at 3 something with 7 missed call and 3 sms... Hahahaha... All from my darl... I silenced my phone, but I don't know why and when I did it... Argh!! Asked Sim Goh Goh why never wake me up, he said he can't afford to see me not enough of sleep, since when he become so understanding huh... Hu~

By the time I watched the match, the result was already 1-1... Luckily I still manage to watch they played during extra time and the penalty.. Both team are equally strong and I'm so gan cheong man.. Haha... I supported Italy, partly is because I went to Italy beginning of this year... Of course I will support Italy... Hahahaha... =p

Penalty is the most gan cheong 'session' of the match, heart beats fast man, and WoooooHooooo~ 5-3 Italy WON!!!!! Yeah Yeah Yippie~ Hahahahahahaha... They are so happy hugging, dancing, jumping, shouting, cheering and screaming... I believe the degree of happiness and excitement is definitely indescribable... Wow, Just Wow!!!

Here goes the end of FIFA World Cup 2006... Again, Wow, Just Wow!! *wink*

My 1 year working experience

My 1 year and 1 month working experience.. I think now is the right timing for me to blog about this, after my 1 year working experience, after my first appraisal last week... I wanted to blog about this last week but I don't have the time to do so as this will be quite a long one...

Being asked by my manager on Thursday at 6pm sharp to his office to discuss about the result of my appraisal and as usual, as per expected, lectured by him on something... I accepted some of his comments and advices, this is the way for me to improve myself, I definitely understand that, but I can't help but feeling down and sad after talked to him... You know what, the feeling is really bad to listen to others' comment on you, especially when it is not a good one.. I'd been think a lot after that... and I have the feeling of uncertainties, the feeling of not being appreciated and lack of self-confidence everytime I think about it... All the compliments that he gave during our first time discussion on my appraisal had disappeared and all covered by what he comment on Thursday... Guess my manager really need to improve the way he convey his message to his subordinates, I'm definitely not the only one who had this kind of feeling in my office but now is really my first time to really experience this kind of feeling.. So to my dear colleagues, I'm here to join you all... Haihz...

I did mentioned about some of the problems I faced which caused the inefficiency that he mentioned, but seems like it is really useless to talk about this to him, as if he will understand, just like what my colleague said... I felt funny when they said, welcome to share with us about your problems... Oh pls, I will never believe that anymore... and I'm naive enough to believe that... Gosh!! Anyway, I decided to think in a more positive way that this is their style to make us to be more independent and to become a better person in future, to think in this way can actually help me to lessen my dissatisfaction towards them... Argh!!! Coordination is definitely not an easy job, whatever happened, I have to prepare myself for the tons of questions thrown by them... I know I shouldn't use the 'fresh graduate or not much working experince' as an excuse, and I really have to emphasis that I never use that word to my manager or anyone in the office to cover my mistakes, BUT, sometimes, this is really the fact that I really don't have this kind of knowledge and experience to face all this workload... I never mentioned that as I know those who understand will understand and I will just do my part to try my best not to repeat the same mistake again... I felt helpless, eveytime when things happened, no one is there to guide me, I'm the one who have to solve it by myself, and they'll be standing aside, waiting for their turn to critize... I wonder do they ever appreciate or even notice my effort?? I hate those who are status-conscious.. I don't understand, is it so difficult to be a more friendly and understanding superior?? Is it so hard for them to praise or give a smiling face to their subordinates?? What is the point to build such a huge wall between them and their staffs?? So that we will be frightened? So that we'll be more hardworking? So that our performance will be better?? So that we will respect them?? Is that really works?? I doubt...

Some of my colleagues' advice to me is to be careful of those who always preparing to attack me... They said I'm actually the victim as I'm in the best position to be attacked by them... I thought we're under one roof, what is the point to attack each other?? I felt helpless, very helpless...

Is it the problems that everyone will be facing in our working life?? Is it true that nothing else we can do but to accept it??

Luckily, I still have my helpful and super kind and understanding colleagues with me.. They really helped me a lot all these while... They try to make me happy whenever they see me under-pressure or feeling down... They try to help me as much as possible whenever I'm in trouble... They try their best to protect me from any possible trouble... I think they will be the best colleagues I ever have in my entire working life... I really appreciate that, and I really appreciate with what Ng did last friday... I'm so touched~ He is the one who knew most of my working problems...

I have a presentation on friday on one of my proposal and honestly, I don't have the confidence anymore...

...............

I need some advice...

I'm not feeling well la~

MC for 2 days but I don't think I'd rest well... Still feeling tired and no appetite... Feel like want to vomit whenever I see food... Sleepy and gastric especially after I took the medicine, I think this is the reason the doctor gave me the medicine for gastric but I didn't take it... Yucks!! Just don't feel like want to take it.. Yucks x2!!

I AM NOT FEELING WELL LA!!!!! Argh!!!

And!! Brazil and Germany lose... Hu~ Both also my favourite teams!! I don't have the mood to watch World Cup already.. Haha =p Haiya... WASTED LA!!

My colleagues said I'm looked thinner and they're asking me what I ate that caused me food poisoning, they want to eat then kena food poisoning then get thinner... Crazy.. Haha... Too exaggerate la wey, but I really didn't eat much in this 2 days... But I ate TomYam Kung and Chocolate with whipped cream on Monday night.. Hahaha.. Ok, I'm notti and crazie~ But I don't really care about don't eat this or that when I'm sick... I still want to eat ice cream even though I had fever or cough or whatever... But I will control la if my sickness is getting serious... I'm blur already, don't even know what is the point I'm blogging this...

Wanted to thanks those caring calls and sms'es' from you all.. Touched~ Sorry for the unanswered calls/miss calls/late sms reply/no sms reply at all... I'm just no mood and lazy... But at least I know who cares and who doesn't, for those who cares, I appreciate that, really!! *wink* Muacks!!

Yesterday watched a Singapore Movie called 'I'm Not Stupid Too'... A very very touching and nice and meaningful movie.. The movie is funny but it brings out some important erm.. how to say the word... points?signals? lessons? Argh, whatever it calls that everyone should take note or aware of... It is something simple but everyone tends to neglect it... This movie talked about what is happening right now in this real world.. I cried like what u know... So touching~ Especially the songs.. Cried and cried only... A MUST WATCH movie, highly recommended by me!! *wink*

No mood No Mood No Mood... Did I say anything about my new colleague before?? He is a guy who likes to smile a lot.. No matter who, what, where, when, the first expression he gave you definitely is his smiling face... It's good actually, especially in this dull office environment, PROBLEMS!! Oh ya, Ng took MC today, he sprainted his leg, pity him when you see the way he walked.. I took MC on Mon and Tue, then he took MC today, he said this is teamwork... HAHAHAHAHAHA.. what kind of teamwork is that? Just now he called and said the 29 auntie balut his leg until so 'HUGE'... Hahahahahaha... Very funny la the way he talked... *haha*

Gonna continue with my work le, just as expected, 2 days MC means messy table and lots and lots and lots of follow up.. Argh!!

I AM NOT FEELING WELL LA!!!