Friendship is the PRECIOUS gift given to us

I had this wonderful feeling after I went yam cha with my lovely buddies yesterday nite.. We're not going anywhere special or having any special meal, just a simple mamak roadside with some simple mamak food n drinks but enough for me to feel really warm and happie!! Haha.. Chatted a lot and laughed like a crazy there.. Even next table also listening to our conversation... Hahaha... And!!! I'm PROUD to announce that we have superstars as our gang members... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... THANKS to Thomas for bringing them in... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... Thank u Lai Meng and Kwok Fu Seng!! Thank u!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA... I didn't really talk much due to the bad sore throat I had but I really have to admit that I laughed like a gila... But of course I cannot beat with Darl, she is too over, especially after see that hyperactive Thomas's 'certain' face expression... HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA..!!!

Gosh!! Love them so very too muchie!!! *Hugs*

Tomorrow onwards I will have 4 days holiday!! WooooHooooooo Yippie Yeah Yeah!! Hahahahaha... Gonna plan some activities already.. Kekekekeke...

Ok, gotta start my engine already.. Have to finish everything so that I can have my 4 days of peaceful and happy holiday!!!

Ta~

Not only Monday Blues

It's also the uncommonly quiet and down atmosphere, with the repeated same old sad songs playing in the air... Nobody dare to talk much, nobody dare to joke around... Or I should say, nobody even know what to say at this very moment, at this kind of atmosphere... Perhaps, the best thing we can do is not to do or say anything... Sigh..

Haih...

Then only I realised...

I don't trust anymore...

Whatever happens, happens for a reason

Was chatting with Thomas when I'm on the way home yesterday. He is the one who always never fail to make me laughed like a gila. Kept on laughing when I'm driving home. Haha. Funny. And guess what?? He said something which I'd warned him not to say to me anymore - Concert. Now he asking me to go to the concert again. This guy really... And somemore ask me not to look back, have to think forward. Li Kei Lei Hong La!!

Dinner @ Secret Recipe yesterday with daddy, mummy, Sim Goh Goh and Wei Wei. Haha. Quite an enjoyable night we had. Chat and laughed a lot. Hehe. I love this feeling, I always love it. =)

'Whatever happens, happens for a reason'

I love this quote very much. A very simple one but it means everything. =)

I want to travel. I want to go shopping. I want to take lots and lots and lots of photos!!!

bla bla bla =p *wink*

Had a short chat with my colleague before lunch. Just a short chat, but it means everything..

We were talking about some 'stuffs', which recently happened to one of my colleague. And I realised that relationship is really something very precious and yet unpredictable. You can feel he is the right one for you at this moment and it doesn't really so after maybe 1 or 2 years. Then you will start asking if blablabla then how, if not blablabla then how? if blabla and at last become blabla then how? What we should do if now we don't blabla and at last it become blablabla. Complicated!! And I guess it not only happens in love life, same goes to some of the important decision you've to make in your life, jobs, family, friends and all. That's what we called life.

Anyway, back to the topic. After we chat for a short while, both of us just keep quiet and he was installing something into the PC and I just sit in front of him playing with the calculator while waiting for the rest to come down for lunch. And suddenly he said, there're many better guys out there, you've to learn to let go ok?? I was like, stunned. How he knew what I was thinking at that moment?? He said see my face already know what is that in my mind and the way I'm playing with the calculator. What a caring guy he is. *Touched* But don't worry, I know what to do. I'm just a bit stubborn, ok, very stubborn. I'll get rid of it soon. I know I will.

They knew what's the thing that is bothering me last week. They're very sensitive with my mood. Sometimes a little bit too sensitive. Haha. But anyway, I really have to admit that I'm touched with everything they did and said to me, although they kept on annoyed me and forced me to tell them my problem. And reassure me that they're the BEST listener. Haha. Funny... AND!! Especially the 'I don't want you unhappy because of him.' I'm touched. I felt blessed.

And this week, it's my another colleague's turn to be moody. I'm kinda worried to see him so down yesterday, as you know, he is the one who always kacau me everyday with all kind of lame jokes and now seeing him so down and the way he smile which is so kekok-ly, really sad to see that. Hope everything will be fine and he will continue gao siu which he promised me last night. =)

Haha. He just called me. Good, he really continue his gao-siuness already. Haha. Good Meh? Need Meh?? Hahahahaha... We love to use this 2 phrases recently.. Haha.. Funny!! He said he want to ta pao cendol for me.. Can you see how GOOD is he.. GGrrrrrrrr... =p

Darl and Geng going to PD this weekend, with their better half. I'm not following them. So I'm not happy with them. Hahaha. =p No la, I just don't want to become the SPOTLIGHT, PD is hot and sunny enough... Hope you all enjoy yourselves to the maximum ya!! *wink*

And Thomas, don't you ever ask me to go to concert again in future. I will mengamuk I tell you... Haha =p

Don't know why today I feel like blogging. I love blogging. Hehe. =)

And oh ya, this is very important. To all my dear dear friends, please be extra careful when you're out no matter day or night, regardless alone or with a gang of friends. Please be extra careful and alert. The society is terribly sick now. Terrible. Very terrible.

So, take good care ya to all my dearie friends. *Hugs*

Sleepy Day

Sleepy!!! Super Sleepy!!! Gosh!!

Yesterday was quite a happy and hyperactive day.. Non stop chatting and laughing for the whole day and that's it.. Of course we're working also la, hahaha.. But was working in a happy mood... Today the feelings all drop... Doom Doom DooooMmmm!!! I'm just very sleepy!!! Maybe because the VIP is coming... Sienzz...

I got too many works to do, pending pending and pending... Argh!!! I'm OVERLOAD you know, I AM OVERLOAD!! Everyone knows, and that's what everybody is facing right now as well... Haih... And I'm now procrastinating... Hu~ I'm very fed up la!! Custom clearance, all kind of forms, this and that, here and there, blablabla... I WANT TO GET OUT, I WANT TO SHOUT LOUD!!! Argh!!

Ok, I just want to release my irritation, I'll get back to my work later and I don't believe I couldn't settle it!!!!!!!

Mm, what else... Oh ya, Eason's concert this weekend!!! Haih, I couldn't make it.. I'm so wanted to go!!! =( Sob Sob... I really wish to go... ...

I miss my bed...

First time... **DRUNK**

Not really drunk until like singing out loud on the street, screaming and shouting like nobody's business la of course, but this is really my first time to have this drunk feeling. Haha. It was like you're very clear in your mind, you know wat you're saying and you know what's going on around you, BUT, my reaction become a bit slow and I really couldn't walk properly, I mean I couldn't walk in a straight line, but I still can walk myself without anyone's papah.. Haha... And my head cannot move too fast or else I will feel really pening. My eyes are like going to close anytime soon. But it's alright. Everything is still under my control. *wink* Quite funny. Hahahahaha.

Yesterday farewell with my colleague. He is going to leave for good and today is his last day. Due to certain circumstances, we decided to do the farewell with him yesterday. Dinner @ All Star, MidValley and then drinking session @ The LockUp, Bangsar. Dinner at All Star is good, everyone is satisfied with the food they ordered. As usual, I ordered Lamb Burger, the portion is super BIG, haha. My colleagues ate all the french fries for me. My stomach really couldn't stored it anymore. Haha. =p Chatting and laughing a lot. Happie!!

The atmosphere at The LockUp is OK OK. Anyway, we enjoyed a lot among ourselves. Hehe. Ordered 6 JARS of TIGER!! Wow. I'm Ok with Tiger so I have to admit that I 'unconsciously' drank a lot. =p Haha. My colleagues was like, Evonne, you are very thirsty or you really like TIGER a lot?? Hahahahaha.. They were all shocked with the way I drank. I'm not drink because of sad or what la. I just want to test my limit. And I feel ok drinking it so I keep on drinking lo. They said I drank about 4 glasses. Those BIG glass. Then they said as a beginner considered not bad already. Haha. I got the potential to be a good drinker. Wahahahaha. =p My mum going to kill me.

I feel ok sitting and drinking and chatting. But then when I stand up wanted to go to ladies. I knew something not right already. I was like floating and my mind cannot concentrate. But really thanks to my colleague who really take good care of me. And he was like, Ok, this is the last one. And the next moment, I drink again, he looking at me and fed up. Haha. Until the last quarter of the beer, I know that's my limit and I really cannot drink anymore, so my colleague drank the rest for me. Wow, so Man. Hahahahaha.

Oh ya Oh ya. My colleague gave me roses. Pink Roses!!! Haha. So sweet of them. And they said I mabuk is because of the flowers not because of the beer. Haha. =) Happie!!!!!!! Girls oh girls, the magic of flowers always work on gals. Haha. =p

When we're on the way walking to the mamak nearby, they saw me walking bergoyang-goyang. Hahaha. Funny la. They offered me their hand. But I don't want. I'm independent. Hahahaha. =p Pening but Funny. Always need something to lay on. Haha. A bit drunk but not very drunk. This is the right way to drink I guess, but once in a while la. The feeling is actually GOOD.. Hehe. But my colleague warned me not to be like this again next time. =p

Mm.. what else what else... Oh ya, I even need my colleague to open and shut my door lock for me. =p

There goes my experience of my first time drunk.. Haha.. A GREAT Experience.. =)

I need some fresh air

~Life isn't a contest; it's a chance to do the best you can with what you have~

Mood of the day: Boring and Down

You'll know what's the real meaning of pressure and fed-up if you come to my office, don't have to be too long, just a few minutes you can feel the tensed atmosphere. They're joking and laughing as usual, we're msn-ing as usual, but each of us know, deep inside, we're all not happy. I don't understand how a company can do until all of the staffs are so fed-up and lack of confidence.

I love my colleagues. I like the friendship that we had developed among us. I feel sad to see them sad. Haih. I wish I can help them, but somehow, even myself also cannot help myself. We could just go, but something hold us back, not because of the company, it's because of the wonderful tie we had with each other, and also the feeling of not willing to give up, the tendency to try again, to challenge ourselves. We're striving hard, but we're all tired. Very tired.

I'm glad as we will still catching each other when we see one of us falls. This is just indescribable. This is one of the precious gift we get from this company. We balanced ourselves to walk in one line instead of stepping each other. We helped each other. It's not easy, really not easy to happen in a company. I appreciate and treasure it a lot. Really.

Haih.

I know I'm very moody these days, personally as well as my blog. I'm sorry if my mood swing caused some negative impact to anyone of you, I just couldn't fake it but I tried my very best to hide it. Really. I don't know how to describe my feelings right now. There's something that I can see it but I cannot catch it. I can feel it but I cannot hold it. I couldn't find anyone to talk to as I don't know how and I don't feel like to too. Maybe, what I need the most is Silence and I'll get back to my own track myself. There's something that others just can't help, even close friends, there's something that only me myself to face it and to solve it. But I know, I will get back to my own track one day.

I can see it but I cannot catch it. I can feel it but I cannot hold it. This really describes all.

Sometimes, I rather I didn't see or feel anything. Sometimes, I rather there's just nothing...

Horoscope of the Day

The Bottom Line
Something is going to happen today that forces you to stop -- and reassess a goal.

In Detail
The speeding racecar that is your life is about to hit a big, blinking red light. Something unexpected is going to happen today that forces you to stop in your tracks and take a long, slow look at where you are in life. Get ready to reassess your goals. It could be something as simple as a new person coming in to your life or as major as a flat tire on the freeway. Whatever it is, it is meant to be -- so approach it with flexibility and an open mind. Everything happens for a reason.

No Mood. Super No Mood.

Unexpected incident that put me into unexpected situation. Unexpected situation that lead me to the middle of nowhere.

Uncertainty. I don't like this feeling. I really don't like it.

No Mood. Super No Mood.

Hyperactive

Do you realise that sometimes the more you care about someone or something, the more you're get vulnerable to that certain thing or person, which made you easily feel hurt or disappointed or sad, even though it is just a small tiny matter?? Which mean, the deeper the feeling you had for that certain thing or person, the easier your mood swing will be like roller coaster, which is all affected by that thing or that person. It is not only happened in relationship, I believe in friendship as well.

Is it a good sign if someone get angry at you with something that you did, which is only a small tiny thing, but unintentionally, we hurted their feelings? Should you feel happy because that person cared and loved for you and that is why they will get mad at you? Think in this way, a person who doesn't care you doesn't even bother what you did to them, am I right?

I don't know why I'd write all these. Just feel like to.

Oh ya, last weekend I watch the Video Clip that my buddies gave me as my birthday present. I miss them so much. Kok Huan called yesterday, asked me out for yam cha. I rejected him as I was too tired. But I really need to catch up with them one day already. Miss them so much!! Especially my lovely Kelly!!!

Yesterday was quite a contented day. Haha. Let's talk about what I did yesterday.

Morning, I was super busy, really super busy. Then afternoon went to customer site at Hulu Kelang. My colleague bring me to have a plant visit. Haha. Saw our machine. And I like the smock!! Hahaha. Made me feel like I'm a doctor. Then I was busying with my colleague's notebook, to key in the part number and bla. I feel like I'm a pro. Hahahaha. Fun!! It's fun to come out once in a while rather than stay in the office. So bored. Hehe.

After that my colleagues bring me to Tamarind Springs. They kept talking about the place and that is the first time I went there. A very romantic and special place I would say. Hope I have a chance to go for dinner there. Haha. *wink wink* They said the food is OK but the environment and atmosphere at night is definitely 100% BEST. Ehem.. I want to go and feel the night scene and atmosphere there!!

Then met up with my other colleagues and we go for Rojak!! My favourite Rojak!! They knew I like it a lot. Hehe. But they're always the one who ate the most. Cannot fight with them la. Haha. Then we go for Floats at A&W, meet our supplier, haha. A very funny guy. Then at last we went for Sundae at McD. WoooooHooooo!!! FUN FUN FUN!! Love them so so so muchie!!

King of Anaconda went to Johor. Assitant of King Anaconda went to Penang. So boring now in the office. You know how noisy is it when they're in the office. Because of their voices, as well as the sound of the keyboard. Hahaha... Busy typing in msn... =p

This morning busy busy busy again... Told them not to disturb me as I got lots of work to do but they said they can't see it and they don't feel it that I'm busy... Hu~ My working life is just like roller coaster...

And now, I'm super free... At least I got the time to procrastinate... Hahaha... I've got tons of works waiting for me... Argh!! Played Facial House just now. After played for few times only I know I got 4 customers, I thought I've got 2 customers only. Hahaha.. I wonder anyone knows what I'm talking about...

Oh ya, I'm not going for yoga today.

I'm very hyperactive today. =p

Life is interesting

I'm late today... Argh!! Late of 3 mins.. I don't like to see my punch card with red colour on it, so, what I do is, I don't punch it!!! Hahaha.. Clever me.. Ssshhhh!! I'll just write it down as 8am end of this month and pretend that I forgot to punch already... Hahahahahaha... =D Will my manager read this?? =p

Yesterday dinner at my grandma's house and I tapao crab!! My colleague fetch me to tapao the crab, which is recommended by him and guess what, wahahahaha... My turn to BAN him... hahahahah.. He is so sad about it... Now he knows what's the feeling of being banned huh.. Keke =p My parents and me thank him for being so nice purposely fetch me to tapao the crab... This is the first time I see my dad treat my guy friend so friendly besides Thomas... He is lucky!! Hahahaha...

I like the way we are now... I couldn't describe it, but I like it!! Honestly I don't think far about until which extent we can go... I'm happy with the way we are now... *hehe* And I'm very clear with the boundary, don't worry..

Hmm.. The feeling of being well taken care of is really goooood~ hehe...

Sometimes when you stepped out from your confusion zone and think out of the box, you may find the right way to go... No point to worry about what will happen in the future, as I always said, it will come if it destined to come, and what I can do now is, to enjoy what I have now but bear in mind about the boundary... Wow, I'm relief... I'm clear with myself now... Yeah!!

You might think this is a pessimistic way, but, I think this is a good way to protect myself... Some may say we have to go for it aggresively for something that we want... Yea.. But!! My case is a different case... So.. Do nothing is the best thing I can or I should do now... *wink* Any comment about this Ann?? *wink wink*

Talked about protect ourselves, it makes me think of 'another person'.. I don't know whether he just want to feel the 'proud', the self-contented or whatever-it-calls to know there's still a gal couldn't forget him or he is just way too protect himself until he keeps his feeling deep inside but on the other hand, he try to use different ways to know or I should say to dig about other's feeling.. For what? To prove himself?? Sometimes I really feel that I don't know him, do I?? But why I need to know, why I care in the first place?? I don't know what is the reason he said those things, which can very easily touched my heart, I know I shouldn't, rationally I know I shouldn't but emotionally, I can't help it... I just can't help it...

He knows me well, at least he knows how to make my heart pounds like nobody's business... But I don't know him well, I don't even know which word that he says can be trust or cannot be trust.. Or I shouldn't even trust him at all... To play the flirt game with him, as what Annie suggested?? No I said. I can't afford to lose...

I've gave the chance, very stupidly I've gave the chance and this is the very last chance, for whatever reason it is, that's it if he doesn't take it...

And wow, I'm super relief... Hahaha...

Sometimes the more you want to know the answer, the harder you can get it... Sometimes when you just quietly sit down and relaxing, the answer will automatically come to you...

Life is interesting... Don't you think so?

Emptiness

Have you ever have a feeling where you feel emptiness in your heart?? It's not that you don't have the person you love and care around you but somehow, you just felt that emptiness inside you...

It has nothing to do with lonely as it is definitely not fair to say that you're lonely when you've your lovely family and bestest buddies around you... It is not about being alone as well, as you can still feel that emptiness even though you'd your noisiest friends with you at that very moment...

Maybe it is because of I couldn't catch the thing that I want... Maybe it is because I couldn't reach the place that I wanted to go.. Or maybe, it is because of I don't even know what I want or where I want to go... I had this feeling yesterday night when I'm out with my colleagues... A night that I'm very looking forward to for the whole week... As per expected, we're having fun, we really do... But the unexpected feeling of emptiness is there as well... A feeling that shouldn't be there, especially when I'm with my colleagues, you know how much I love to hang out with them...

Is it because of the 'someone' who always won't fail to affect my emotion again?? I don't know.. But if this is the reason, then I'm really a total failure...

~If there's one thing in this world that I know is true, It's the love that I feel when I'm thinking of you~

Mood Swing season again...

Put Thanks and Appreciation into Words

**If you take it for granted that others know how much you appreciate them, they will probably think you take them for granted. Put thanks and appreciation into words**

I want to go for a trip..!!! Wherever is it, as long as I can played and enjoyed myself to the maximum... Looked through some of my Italy and Japan's photo and I was like, Argh!! I want to travel!!!!!! Then my colleague will be like, the more you wanted to travel, the longer you've to wait for your dream cafe.. Blah!! So bad... But it is true also... Enjoy life and work hard, can't this both work together to achieve my dream?? Alright, sacrifice is a MUST in order to achieve your dream, sooner... Haha...

And recently, there're lots of people concerning me *haha* about my resignation... Mm.. I'd think a lot about it these few days and I already had a plan inside my mind... Mummy and my colleague are agree with it as well.. So I believe this is the right way.. All in all, now is not the time yet.. *wink* I felt grateful, for those who are by my side all these while when I'm down and directionless, I'm really indecisive but they're patiently by my side, listened to my problems over and over again, gave me their sincerest advice and concern... I'm really touched when they telling me that they will support me all the way and no matter what is the outcome, things that they concerned the most is my feeling, as long as I'm happy then they'll feel happy also... *Touched*

And for those who send me sms and chat with me through msn giving me their sincerest wishes, I'll always keep that in my heart, I really appreciate it!! As I said, it is always these little things that lighten up my day and made me feel touched... A BIG THANKS to you, you and you!! (You know who you are)

THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH~ **Muacks**

Oh ya, yesterday went to A&W with colleagues from 5 until 6 something... =p This is what we called 'snake'... Hahahahahaha... Chit chatting and laughing again... They played an important role in holding me back but they don't allow me to think like that... =p Don't care la.. Just follow my plan and things will follow, I believe...

Anyway, FUN!!! =p

**Trust your heart to make the pathway, and everything will follow**

This is one of my favourite quote that I always remind myself these few days... Not only about work, but for other matters as well...

:. Love In Heart .:
:. Peace In Soul .:
:. Joy In Life .:

**wink wink**