I miss...

I miss the moment when both of us being together..
I miss the moment when we sms until late at night..
I miss the moment when we must greet each other every morning and night..
I miss the moment when we talked about everything and anything together..
I miss the moment when both of us are so unwillingly to go home after the whole night outing..
I miss the way we missing each other..
I miss the feelings..
I miss.. him...

Love is...

Love is missing someone but you couldn't see him..

Love is loving someone but you couldn't love him..

Love is knowing someone has you in his heart but also knowing that there're someone else in his heart..

Love is being asked to wait for the right timing, where no one knows when is the right timing and what is the righter time than both parties falling in love at the same time..

Love is being asked to control your feelings..

Love is being told that it is hard to control but you HAVE TO control..

Love is being asked to be understanding on something that nobody knows how to be understanding on it..

Love is seeing the one you love being caring and responsible, but not to you..

Love is seeing the one you love protect someone else so much, he didn't even realise that he hurts you so much at the same time..

Love is being asked by the one you love not to wait for him..

Love is being asked to give chance to others, which I don't know how when I already had someone in my heart..


Love is being ignored and let go by the one you love..

Love is when the one you love rather to spend time with someone else and asking you to be more understanding on his responsibility..

Love is when you don't know how to get mad at such a kind person..

Love is being asked to wait for no one knows how long..

Love is when the one you love is speechless when you asked about the future..

Love is being asked to maintain a good friend relationship, not necessary to be lovers..

Love is being asked by the one you love to maintain a relationship where not necessary to commit into a relationship but still can enjoy the special feelings..

Love is seeing the one you love hurting you, but you need to be considerate at the same time..

Love is when someone tell you he misses you but couldn't be with you..

Love is when someone tell you he loves you but you couldn't really feel it..

Love is when you feel the emptiness in your heart when the one you love telling you he loves you as well..

Love is when you can feel the uncertainties, worry and sorrow even in your happiness..

Love is when you can only sms or call when the time is 'convenient'..

Love is when he tells you he just want to be fair when you know he is totally being unfair to you..

Love is when someone you love telling you that he doesn't want to hurt you but he doesn't realise that he already hurted you so much, which is beyond his expectation..

Love is when your tears will non-stop rolling down when you think of him..

Love is when the one you love tells you that he wants to you be happy when he is the one who made you sad..

Love is when seeing the one you love care so much about other's feeling until he neglected your feelings..

Love is when being told by the one you love that he doesn't want to let you go, but his action telling you he is to let you go..

Love is when you know both parties love each other so much, but not able to go further than this..

Love is when you clearly understand the feelings and situation of the one you loves, try to accept everything, waiting for the best to come, but you're already bleeding inside..

Love is when someone telling you he loves you, but you don't know how to trust it when he himself also cannot prove it to you..

Love is when you're being optimistic, but the truth and fact not allow you to feel so..

Love is when you love until don't know what is love..

Love is when you know he is such a good guy but you put him into dilemma..

Love is when you know you love so much again and you know you're going to feel the pain so much again..

Love is a word that sounds better, but has the similiarity with the word HURT..

My new understanding of love..

Love is when you know sometimes you just need to take the initiative to let go..

The feeling of being loved

and to love...

I feel like want to jump and hop around instead of walk..
I feel like want to laugh out loud instead of smile..
I feel like want to sing instead of talk..

I feel like want to forever feel in this way...

Gosh!! I'm getting crazie.. =p

I got a feeling in my soul

A lovely feeling that I had.. To love and be loved...

I had a great night yesterday.. Not going to tell in details here but the feeling deep down is so real and strong and even until now, at this moment, my soul and feeling are as if still pausing there and enjoying the comfortable moment yesterday night.. No sweet talk No nothing, but the feelings says it all... I'm very sure that every single thing that happened yesterday night, every little tiny thing, will forever stay in my heart, no matter how is the ending in future.. The feeling is just so.. indescribable.. Until you don't feel like want to tell in details to anyone, it's just like the most precious thing you ever had, you just want to keep it carefully in your heart... Gosh!! Words can't describe my feelings right now.. I think I'm smiling while sleeping yesterday night...

That is the emotional part. Come to the rational part, I knew there're lots of things that I really need to consider and god knows how much courage I had put into this, this is even beyond my own imagination.. I know those who are close to me will know that this is not going to be easy for me.. I'm worry about every single thing that you all worried about, every single possibility that you might think of came across my mind as well.. And everytime when I feel the worry from my love ones, my worry and uncertainties deep inside my heart has actually doubled up.. I kept telling myself to be more positive, I kept telling myself to be more optimistic.. I'm struggling deep inside, and I really hope to get the full support from my love ones, this is what I need the most.. I don't want to give pressure to anyone, I just want to feel the support from you all..

And I've to admit that I have some uncertainties as well and that's why I'm kinda agree with the timing saying.. At least I got the answer, I know I'm not alone...

I wish... I've more courage and luck to face this..
I wish... The next blog is not a sad one..
I wish.. sincerely wish that everything can just comfortably goes on as what I wish..

PALING HATE!! SUPER ANGRY!!

Maybe you will think that I'm exaggerate but I just cannot accept it and this is definitely in my top list of the thing that I hate the most.. I'm super angry man..

This has been a hot topic, few years back if I'm not mistaken, about this kind of forwarded msg. I never received it before from anyone until yesterday night. It is really getting on my nerves. When I heard about the content of the msg from radio or read the content from newspaper few years back, i think it is really ridiculous and the person who created it or even sent it is really brainless. I'm not song with this kind of msg and until yesterday night when I personally received it, and from someone I never ever expect he will do so.. I tell you, the level of anger and disappointment is beyond anyone's expectation..

I mean, is it nothing better else you can do in your life rather than sending all those meaningless msg?? Cursing people's family, friends and love is THE WORST thing someone can ever do.. You might say this kind of msg won't really affect anything, it is just a forwarded msg after all, you can just ignore it if you don't like it, SO THEN WHAT IS THE POINT YOU SENDING IT??

I did received those forwarded msg saying that you will get bad luck for 5 years if you don’t forward this msg. Ok fine, I just ignore and delete it. But when it comes to cursing my love ones, that is really challenging my limit, regardless you did it jokingly or unintentionally. Tell me, how unwillingly or unintentionally are you to send this kind of msg? This is all up to you. And what you get from this?? So called protecting your love ones and push the cursing to the other 15 friends in your phone list?? This will only shows how selfish and childish and brainless you are.. Is this what a friend should do? And how could you actually press the send button, what is that in your mind?? I just don’t understand it and I’m really super angry with it..

Hu~ Ok, I just want to release my anger...

Just *Sweet*

Sat:
Shopping with mummy, bought 212!! Haha.. She wanted it for so long and at last she got it.. Tho she is quite shocked to see the price... Hahaha =p And we just walked around, bought some household thingy and walked around again.. Hehehe.. Lunch @ Secret Recipe, ate my all-time favourite TomYam Kung and my mummy ate her all-time favourite Tiramisu.. Yummy!! At night, discussed with my colleagues about tomorrow's Zoo Trip.. Wahahahaha... *Sweet*

Sun:
Woke up at 7am++, took breakfast together with my colleagues and off we go to ZOO!! I wanted to go for so long and nobody want to acc me to go.. Everyone look at me one kind whenever I said I wanted to go Zoo.. Hahaha.. Happie!! Walked around, took photos around and not to forget the laughing part.. Hehehehe... We met the tiger - Titi, the lion - Titi and also the monkey - Titi... HAHAHAHAHAHA.. =p A tiring but yet wonderful trip... *Double Sweet*

Oh ya!! Bought Jay's new album!!! WooooHoooo!!! I was like listen to it every day and night.. I think it is a good one and especially the interesting lyrics.. Love it!! Hehehe..

Listen to Darl's voice and talking with her on phone everyday during office hour is always the sweetest!! hehe.. Love you darl, Just love you.. Muacks!!

All in all, everything is just sooooo sweet.. =)

Wonderful Saturday

It's wonderful! It's fantastic! It's marvellous! It's just GREAT!!!

I am very super duper hyper happy!!! Hahahaha... I went to Genting on Saturday with my dear dear colleagues... Really enjoyed myself to the maximum and basically what I did there is just - laugh, laugh and laugh, laugh non-stop and I'm really laughed my lung out I tell you... Hahahahahahaha... Happie!!

They knew I wish to go Genting yam cha long time ago and it is just so sweet of them.. Love them so much!! Reached there around 7pm, we went for a walk at FirstWorld, took lots of photos using my handphone *wink* We didn't plan to go genting before that and so we went there with no camera no jacket no nothing... Just Zzzooommmmm and we go.. Hahaha... At first they thought of want to buy a jacket for me, and therefore we go to FirstWorld, but it is not that cold, so we just walk around, crazy around and take photos around... Hahahaha.. =) We really laughed at every little thing and also the crazy and creative imagination they have... Hahaha...

Then we went to Coffee Bean, I thought it will be crowded but it is not, so we just take our own sweet time enjoying our Mocha, chatting and laughing... Started to freezing cold but it is still ok for us.. Hahaha.. Seeing everyone around us with their jacket and I just want to say that, We are strong man..!!! Wahahahahahaha... Talked about lots of things, mainly about some of the 'experience' and 'stories' we had when we went overseas... But most of the time I'm just listen to their interesting stories... Enjoyed!! We really can talk about anything, just anything... *wink*

After that we went to indoor theme park, a place that I didn't went in for YEARS!!! Now only I know they use card to play instead of coins and it is really not easy to win something... And due to our first-time-playing-by-using-card, we played excitingly with a machine that is actually not working, super malu man... HAHAHAHAHAHA... Luckily there're not much people there... Hahaha =p Played for around 1++ hours then we exchange some little things with the tickets and off we left, back to KL..

We went to KL to see 'something' that I always heard but haven't really seen before or I should say I never seen so many of them at once before... Quite an exciting experience but I don't really dare to look at them... Haha =p
After that we went yamcha at Bangsar and off we went home at 2 something...

What a wonderful saturday I had!! *wink* I'm just so very happy everytime I think of it, all the jokes and everything that we did there... *sweet*

I'm looking forward to our next plan which they had promised me... WoooooooHoooooooo!!! Can't wait for it..

Time to think for another place that I wanted to go... keke...

Holiday!! *wink*

If you were to ask me what I've done in this 2 days, my answer is NOTHING... Hahaha... The feeling is good actually, I can wake up at the time I want, I can do whatever I want to do, I can just lay on my bed and listen to my favourite songs, reading my favourite CLEO and it feels good, really good!! Hehehe... The pressure-free life... I'm lovin it.. Hahaha... I want to enjoy my every moment to the maximum as I know, the war will be started on Monday... Hahaha... My manager just sms-ed me and said that I should go back to work.. Haha =p

Ate Big Breakfast today with Wei... Wow, long time I never take Big Breakfast already since I graduated I think... We used to eat Big Breakfast or Makcik before we went for classes, those are the days that will forever kept in my heart... Sweet memories... Miss those days =)

I realised that, there're people who are really selfish in this world, until the extent that I don't understand how a human being can do that.. Maybe I'm too exaggerate but I just cannot accept it when they don't care about other's feeling and just do whatever they wanted to do and expect people to understand them and follow their plan, they don't even care whether the other party willing to do so or not, not even a chance given to them to choose... They just have to accept it, I mean, nobody is ought to bear all the pain and uncertainties for you, for whatever reason is it, it is just not fair...

And, there're also people who won't know how to be appreciative until they lose something, chances are given but you don't take it and when things become worst, when it is beyond your expectation or beyond your control, then only you started to do something to try to solve it... Yes, it is touched seeing you trying your hardest to save it but don't you know that, sometimes, when the timing is not right, it is just meaningless no matter how hard you tried..

But of course, there're no certain formula for this, things might become surprisingly good and also might become expectedly failed, as long as you tried, then it will be no regret in future... =)

It's ok to let yourselves fall sometimes, as long as you know how to catch yourselves back...

Good Luck to all my dearie friends... =)