I got a feeling in my soul

A lovely feeling that I had.. To love and be loved...

I had a great night yesterday.. Not going to tell in details here but the feeling deep down is so real and strong and even until now, at this moment, my soul and feeling are as if still pausing there and enjoying the comfortable moment yesterday night.. No sweet talk No nothing, but the feelings says it all... I'm very sure that every single thing that happened yesterday night, every little tiny thing, will forever stay in my heart, no matter how is the ending in future.. The feeling is just so.. indescribable.. Until you don't feel like want to tell in details to anyone, it's just like the most precious thing you ever had, you just want to keep it carefully in your heart... Gosh!! Words can't describe my feelings right now.. I think I'm smiling while sleeping yesterday night...

That is the emotional part. Come to the rational part, I knew there're lots of things that I really need to consider and god knows how much courage I had put into this, this is even beyond my own imagination.. I know those who are close to me will know that this is not going to be easy for me.. I'm worry about every single thing that you all worried about, every single possibility that you might think of came across my mind as well.. And everytime when I feel the worry from my love ones, my worry and uncertainties deep inside my heart has actually doubled up.. I kept telling myself to be more positive, I kept telling myself to be more optimistic.. I'm struggling deep inside, and I really hope to get the full support from my love ones, this is what I need the most.. I don't want to give pressure to anyone, I just want to feel the support from you all..

And I've to admit that I have some uncertainties as well and that's why I'm kinda agree with the timing saying.. At least I got the answer, I know I'm not alone...

I wish... I've more courage and luck to face this..
I wish... The next blog is not a sad one..
I wish.. sincerely wish that everything can just comfortably goes on as what I wish..