I'm Back...... to working life...

Oh well well well.. My long holiday has finally draws to an end now and I'll be start working on Thursday.. Not next thursday but THIS thursday!! Time flies isn't it?? I'm kinda excited and looking forward to my new job but at the same time I'm feeling sad.. No more woke up at 12pm, no more sleep at 3am, no more movies everyday, no more shopping everyday, and most importantly, no more 24/7 stick with him everyday.. I'm going to miss those care-free and pressure-free days a lot..

But just like what people said: Rest is a preparation to walk a longer and tougher journey.. Yea, a long long journey to go.. Anyhow, I know I can do it because I know my loved ones are with me.. Their presence always bring me courage to face whatever which is waiting for me ahead.. I love them lots..

I went to my workplace these two days, just to practice my driving skill as well as my sense of direction, haha.. you know how bad is my sense of direction.. and I started worry about the parking problem.. It's hard to find a parking lot there.. Gosh!! And the environment.. I started to doubt my decision to reject the job offered to be by JC (IBM building).. The environment at IBM is far more better than this one but come to think of it, why I rejected that offer at the first place? Because I believe the experience and knowledge I will be learning from this company will be far more better and broader and useful than IBM ones.. And the environment is not that bad though.. So.. I think I'm just being too pessimistic again.. And honestly, I feel much better after read the mail sent by my boss - Welcome abroad and It'll be a fun ride... Ha, well, I started to look forward to it again..

Yes, my emotion is just like roller coaster.. =p

Mm.. lately I read one of my friend's blog who has been failed and disappointed in a relationship, seems like she has been hurt badly.. Almost the same situation with me last time.. I know how she felt.. Believe me, if you want to get rid of someone in your mind, get rid of him from your life first.. You'll never get to forget him if you keep seeing him, meeting him, chatting with him.. You just treat him as your friend?? PLS DON'T LIE!! It's impossible.. You're just putting hope in him, hoping him to come back to you one day.. He will only take you for granted, fool you around but act innocently and feel proud deep inside that there're gals out there who keep begging me back.. I've met this kind of guy before.. The BEST thing you could do is live life better than him AND live life without him..

And now is the time you realise how touching and good your friends and family have been to you.. And you will also realise that you actually lose nothing, you just lost a guy who don't love you but him, he lost a girl who has once love him so much, wholeheartedly.. There're always lessons to be learnt.. And there're no right or wrong in a relationship.. The failure that you felt today will be a useful lesson in future.. You'll learn to be more mature and tolerate in future.. You'll learn to appreciate your loved ones with all your love.. You'll know who is the right one who deserves your love and care..

Last but not least, it's ok to let yourself fall as long as you know how to catch yourselves back.. =)

Time for lunch la.. Guess the next post will be my update about my New Job.. WoooHooooo!!! Wish me luck ya...

Stay tuned..

Good day ya!!

Happy Valentine's Day ^_^

Wishing everyone have a Romantic and Unforgettable Valentine's celebration with your loved ones!! Enjoy!!

*wink wink*

Insomnia is torturing...

Couldn't sleep well for last few nights.. and it is really torturing.. I felt like want to bang on the wall and get myself sleep.. Haha.. And it was more torturing when you couldn't sleep, and you feel like want to online and surf around and this turtle PC is going super slow, have to wait for 10 mins just to open Internet Explorer, can you imagine that?? And now I really feel like want to bang on the PC to make it totally spoilt and get myself sleep, instead of the wall.. Haha.. Was talking rubbish here.. And seriously, I feel like get myself a notebook, but not to think about it anymore as this idea was totally banned by everyone.. well ya, I won't use it that much when I start working.. Oh well..

I tends to think a lot these days.. really a lot.. which is a good thing as I can make sure my brain is working well although I'm not working now but it is a-not-so-good-thing as sometimes, think too much might cause people gone mad... I'm pessimistic although one of my New Year Resolution is to be more optimistic, I was trying hard.. really.. Not easy for someone who born to be so pessimistic.. I need more time, definitely..

Was looking through my photo album just now, our gang's photo.. Genting Trip, Bukit Tinggi Trip, at college, graduation, etc.. Good memories.. I was thinking, I wonder when I can see the same smile on each of our face again.. I miss those memories and those smiling face.. I miss those days.. Anyway, life is all about looking forward, we couldn't stop and turn back time right..
We still have to face whatever that we ought to face in future.. So.. just live life happily..

My aunt said I look fatter than before, I don't want to believe it but I know it is a fact when I looking through my photo album just now.. Ok, I'm not being 'Sulekha' here but... Gosh, I'm really getting fat already..

Oh ya, just received Jason's mail and feel so warm when he called me 'Von Von'.. Hehe.. That's how my ex-colleagues used to call me.. So sweet.. =)

Alright, that's all for today.. =)

Good night!!

Friends...

The bond is there, it's always there...

I'd been catch up with some of my friends and buddies these days, through phone calls and meet ups.. It's good.. The laughing and chatting, the best friendship is the one which we don't need a frequent meet ups and to know that the bond is always there.. It's sweet, isn't it?

I love them very much =)

Hey ya

Hey ya.. I'm now at Starbucks... alone.. Nowadays I tend to do things all by myself.. It's good actually, good start.. I'd been too dependent all these while, should learn to be more independent.. But somehow I feel that it is a bliss to become dependent as it means you always have someone to rely on.. That's a bliss isn't? Anyway, one of my New Year Resolution is to be MORE INDEPENDENT and now I'm working on it.. I'm serious k.. =p

And yea, I love shopping alone.. =) Went to Cineleisure, taking my own sweet time choosing and trying.. The Sales Promoter even asking me whether I'm a model.. WAHAHAHA!! Although I'm not but I'm happy for the compliment.. Kakakaka.. =D Bought lots of things, spent around RM400 there and yea, it seems like I didn't aware that I'm jobless now.. haha.. But the feeling is good, seeing the things I got for myself is good, happy and contented!! Wahaha.. And now, it's time for savings - for my future, for our future.. hehe..

I tends to think a lot these days, more about my future, about myself and all, like an old lady.. Things seem to be more clear now, just wish everything will be smooth sailing.. =) I'll strive to the best, together with him, for our better future, and for our parents happy future as well.. It's time for us to take care of them now.. =)

CNY is around the corner.. The most torturing moment before CNY is the cleaning session.. Gosh!! It's so tiring ok.. My back, my hand and even my nails are very pain now.. Walk like a pregnant lady now.. hahaha... Oh ya, I will be joining California Fitness next month (my another New Year Resolution)!! I'm kinda excited for it.. Wahahaha..

I'd lots of New Year Resolution this year and it will always in my mind, reminding myself to work toward it.. I wish I can get it all done by this year, at least there're some planning for it.. I wish to make my life more contented and interesting.. I'm very greedy this year (wahaha) but I'm really hope I can make it, and I know there're more to come as time goes by.. =)

Alright, he is coming now.. Will update again soon..

Take care ya!! *Hugss*