Just my blablabla

Went to the Hair Saloon yesterday as I've been totally fed up with my hair for the past few weeks.. It really irritates me a lot as it was getting long, dry, messy and etc.. The condition is really bad and therefore, I decided to do something on my hair before I start my new job.. hehe.. Hair Cut+Treatment+Colour+some of the products costs me around RM500.. Gosh!! Anyway, I'm kinda satisfied with the outcome, I feel much better now.. =) I promise I'll not waste money on my hair anymore.. for this year.. =p

No wonder people said it's so easy to earn gal's money.. =p

Talked to Ann and Thomas the other day and seems like they're finding their own way to earn extra money.. I don't know but I really don't like to take this kind of risk.. Or maybe I should say - I dare not.. Yes, I'm pengecut.. Perhaps I should try to take the risk one day.. And who knows I'll become expert and billionaire then I can spend my money without any hesitation and then and then and then... Dream on... haha.. =p

How to maintain a relationship? I mean can we really control the outcome of a relationship? We can only try our best to protect it so that in future if it ends also we won't end it with regrets.. It's not about how we do, it's about how it had been destined and arranged, it seems like we're controlling it but in fact, we're just follow the path of how it had been arranged.. You get what I mean?? It's difficult sometimes as when you think that you'd been tried your best to protect it but it might cause some pressure to your the other half and then he wanted to end it as he cannot take the pressure anymore.. There're also cases when you love and trust him too much, give as much as freedom that he wants, he will also end it blaming that he'd been given too much freedom which caused him misuse the freedom and bla. There're always this kind of possibilities with different kind of weirdo reasons that you can't even expected and so, come back to the question, can you really control the outcome of a relationship? How can you make sure it will be a good ending? Sometimes when if it is a good ending also it doesnt mean both of you are happy with the ending.. And the story goes on.. Gosh!!

Perhaps I've been listened to too many sad stories which had ungkitkan my nature of pessimistic.. Tell me some good ending stories pls.. I need some fairy tale to balance my feelings now..

Perhaps we should just take it easy and enjoy whatever we had now, instead of keep thinking something that might or might not happen in the future, we couldn't control it either..

When it comes to work, the possibility to get a PERFECT job is always less than 50% I believe.. PERFECT means you love the job and you satisfied with the benefits, which included monetary and non-monetary as well.. It's always not easy to satisfy human's needs and wants anyway but how would you choose if you can only choose one? PAY or JOB SATISFACTION? High pay but you feel like you're working for no future OR you enjoying the work you're doing but you couldn't enjoy your luxurious life like others with the pay you got..

For me, I will actually choose to find a job that I can learn more and more and a lot.. It might be a less pay job, compare to others but still I would accept it if it can helps me in my future.. I don't have much commitment now and therefore I still can afford it, I should choose a job which I can learn more so that with the knowledge and experience I have, I can go for a higher position with a higher pay in future.. But somehow, I feel one kind also... Aih... my feelings has been very unstable lately..

A: Do you think that timing is very important to know someone?
E: Yea.. Very important..
A: It has been 3 years..
E: Yea...
A: It's hard to find someone that you really love.. It's not easy to get back the feelings..
E: Slowly lo..
A: Sometimes human made wrong decisions..
E: Maybe, but you still have lots of choices waiting for you ahead.. No worries..
A: Yes, no point looking back..

It's really no point looking back.. We'd our own life to live ahead.. =)

I love my bf.... wahahahahaha *blush*