Just bla...

Whenever I feel I got no way to voice out my anger, I will think of my blog.. My poor blog, neglected by me for decades and only when I'm unhappy, then only I will think of it.. Anyway..

I was thinking, if there're still someone reading my blog, what will they feel on me? 'I believe she is someone who has a very negative thinking', 'I believe she is having a hard time most of the time' or 'I believe she has no one to talk to when she is feeling down'? OR 'She shud've be more optimistic and grateful for what she has now', 'This girl is not happy'?

No, No, No... I just like to share my feelings (or is there anyone else who read my blog)? I don't care, I just want to tell out my feelings.. I'm happy most of the time, I know how to calm myself down.. No worries... =) People might think I'm naive, maybe I am at this point of time, anyway who will be still can think rationally when they're feeling angry? I can't.. And, why cares? This is my blog anyway...

I started to feel that I'm not suitable for the corporate world.. Why? Because I don't know how to act busy in front of everyone, make everyone feel that I'm the most capable woman with tons of job a day.. Because I do not know how to 'make friend' with certain influencial people so that, maybe, they can help me sometime somewhere.. Because I don't know how to say sweet things and make everyone likes me... Because I don't know how to step on other's head to climb higher and higher and higher, and the most unbelievable part is, the owner of the stepped head doesn't even know what is going on.. Because I don't know how to catch the chance to make everyone like you and become the most favorable person in the company... Because I do not know how to become a two-faced person and yet, people will feel that they're cute and innocent...

I'm not trying to finger-point anyone.. and I'm not trying to say that people with the above 'qualification' are bad... Don't try to put those words with your own understanding..

I'm just telling out what I feel...

I'm still seeking the way and I know I'll find my way...

*smile*